*warning* contains talk of blood loss.
Good morning peeps.
I know iv said it many times before but thought I should just remind you, I really hate Mother Nature… Ahh I could just scream, seriously why is she visiting me so often, she is so unwelcome.
My emotions are all over the place its ridiculous, I can cry at the drop of a hat.
I’m either sweating my boobs off or freezing cold, just no happy medium, my appetite is all over the place, I either want to eat everything in site or not eat at all.
My face, shoulders, neck and back, are erupting, iv not had spots like this for many years, I’m sure I’m growing mini volcano s on my body..
My mood swings are unreal on Saturday the hubby got it all, he couldn’t even breathe without me snapping at him, it’s a good job Neil understands what we women go through, otherwise Im certain I would be single by now, but geez why do we become a lioness so protective and angry at the same time?, yep an hormonal imbalance they say, but does this give us the right to act like a big grizzly bear?.
I go to the bathroom and it’s like a slaughter house, my uterus is expelling the last 5 years of junk it no longer wants, but I do keep telling it ‘it’s OK you can keep it’ but for some reason she just doesn’t want to, it’s so unfair, I’m giving my body back something for free but she keeps rejecting my offer.. Big Sigh..
Early evening walk.
On Saturday evening Neil convinced me to go for a walk, it was a lovely evening, but I just didn’t want to go, I had no energy and was feeling so low I just wanted to stay curled up on the sofa where iv been for the last few days, I did give in and went out for an hour, although I hardly walked, with my period I also get extra low back pain, so this combined with my usual pain, cramps and low mood left me feeling very sorry for myself, but I’m glad I did go, the views over the sea were wonderful and I certainly needed a break from these 4 walls.
On Monday morning we all awoke to the awful news that Thomas Cook had gone into administration, all those poor employees that are now out of a job, with all the worry they now have, my heart breaks for them, I was due to go on holiday next Sunday, but that pails into insignificance now, I will get my money back eventually and I can book another holiday, but not these guys that have lost so much.
I felt as though my low mood was lifting, we went shopping, I was getting back on track again!! today, until we decided to unpack the suitcases, I was putting my clothes back on the hanger and my shoes back in the boxes, when I had an overwhelming feeling of sadness, not that I’m not going on holiday, but that I had worked so hard to get into these smaller clothes, and wouldn’t be wearing them, then I began crying becouse I felt so guilty for being selfish when so many more people have so much more to worry about.
I headed to the kitchen to prep tea, we’ve not had kebabs for a while, so I prepared the vegetables and marinated the chicken, then took out my blanket that I’m working on, this one is for me and as it has a lot of detail in, which means I need to concentrate, and by doing this I can push any awful thoughts to the back of my mind, and just concentrate on the task in hand, this blanket when finished will fit my King size bed, so a lot more to do yet 😅we’ll I burnt the kebabs so that set me off again, so I tucked into a tub of halo chocolate ice cream (it’s well within my calorie deficit lol), so no guilty feelings here.
What do you do to help relive your stress??.
It’s now Tuesday morning, so far iv had 4 cups of coffee, and ran out of calogran, so Neil is running to lidl to get me some more, I really feel as if today is a coffee day, I have had a nose bleed, and caught up on 2 programs that I had recorded. What the rest of the day holds for me I’ve no idea, but I’m sure I will tell you all about it… Lol..
Wherever you are whatever your doing have a good day xoxo